Have I mentioned just how much I love water aerobics? as it's the only exercise I've managed this week short of chasing kids on the playground, I am contemplating dropping the 5k and just taking more classes. but I DO want to run in a 5k so I'm feeling torn about it as I told EVERYONE and their brother that's what I'm going to do. sooooooooo I'm going to just have to add more workouts to the schedule :) I could get crazy and start taking 5am classes or something HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i think that the worst part is that there isn't a written explanation of the classes at the gym, so you have to ask. when something says "boot camp" or "cardio sculpt" you don't really know what you are in for... although I'm very interested in trying step and zumba, but not so much belly dancing (although I bet it would be great for my abs... maybe I can figure out a way to add some of those classes to my week. they offer step on Wednesdays at 530 and zumba on friday night!

anyways I'm down to 174 today (173.8 yesterday so I know at least my efforts are working!

I'm thrilled to report that this morning I was 175. I guess maybe this weekend wasn't as bad as I thought. I really focused on eating and drinking fluids yesterday, and I'm definitely happy about it. We didn't get to go to the gym because Landon threw up in the afternoon and I didn't want to repeat that.

Tonight is water aerobics and I'm super excited about it!

I have an eye doctor appointment this morning, and I'm so irritated iwth the blurry vision, I wonder if she will have other suggestions. at this point I'm doing everything she asks, and they are still blurry, so it can't be from dry eye right? I'm interestd to see what she will say.

*sigh* what a roller-coaster of a week. I had awful cramping that left me with little energy and patience to do much else other than whine. I know I could've done more, but I really didn't want to. Thursday I went to water aerobics but was in a lot of pain, and by Thursday night it was unbearable. Fortunately whatever was going on with my body started to subside, and the cramping was much more bearable over the weekend.

however, I made poor food choices and binged several times on food, regardless of whether I was hungry or not, and it cost me. I was 177.4 this morning (Monday's are my official weigh-in) which means I'm up about .4 lbs from last week.

This week I'm focusing on water intake, and in-between meal snacking.

I'm also starting to study for the GRE. I'm a nervous wreck but I won't be after I study a bit I think.

Weeks goals:

Drink water!!!!!

run 3x

study 3x

water aerobics 2x

no mindless snacking!

I can't seem to get past the mental block that I can only run 3 minutes in a row. in fact, I didn't go to the gym Monday because the kids were sleeping and it was Mike's birthday, I went for a brief run with Erin and tonight it's doubtful I'll go because I'll be in Cary with my friend Kate. I'm frustrated with myself for refusing to run!

I am 176.2 lbs this morning so weight loss is moving along!

i snacked yesterday but it was with healthy foods like hummus and ants on a log. I had a delicious dinner and ate way too many tacos but stayed at the low end of my calorie recommend.

I won't lie though. today I want nothing more than a Big Mac and fries with a HUGE diet coke.

more healthy snacking goals for next week, and counting water. I'm dehydrated this morning and I realize I had less than 2 glasses of water all day.

So after starting off on a rocky start, I'm down to 176.8 lbs this week!

I've been to the gym only once so far, and I went running/walking with Erin (who has such long legs I have to run to keep up haha) yesterday and I have decided I can't wait until there is air in the tires of the new bike trailer/jogger.

I'm not interested in running anymore, but I always feel good when I do it. so... I will continue. I am very interested in water aerobics and I'm bringing a friend tonight, which makes me so happy!

Im still struggling with over-eating, feeling compelled to eat when I'm not hungry, and feeling guilty with every bite I take. I don't think I have an eating disorder, but it's that food has such a connection with happiness that I have a hard time denying myself that. it was intensified because of the amount of restriction I give myself during pregnancy I think. I feel like I deserve carbs after it's over and it doesn't work out so well for me.

Yesterday's big downfall was Mike's birthday cake. I had a slice, it was tasty, but it wasn't really what I wanted and I'm still regretting it. fortunately I won't eat it again.

I'm really TRYING to curb the snacking but it's not working, so I need to make sure it's healthy foods instead of crackers.

I'm going to start studying for the GRE and take it hopefully in May. I think I'm going to go to the gym and do my half-hour run and then study for an hour while the kids are in the daycare. I thought that was a brilliant idea thank you very much.

lets see if I can snack healthy today. I have hummus, ants on a log, celery and baby carrots.

WOW. This week was off to a rough start. I was really upset with the weight gain and how I seemed to have gained my first week of counting calories and making poor choices. I haven't gotten the snacking completely under control and I'm bordering the highest calories recommended for weight loss according to sparkpeople.com but I weighed myself this morning and I'm 177 lbs. I went to the gym for the past two days.

Tuesday is water aerobics. don't laugh! it's really hard. we did something called the pyramid where you build off each move and keep adding on and repeating. It was a great workout. the best part of water aerobics is you don't feel like you are working so hard as you are in running, so it's like a break from that, but when I get home I feel so pleasantly warm and tired and lovely.

Wednesday I did week 3 of C25k. I like this week and I'm having a hard time working myself up to run any more than 3 minutes. I will try next week but I'm not looking forward to it as 3 minutes consistently kicks my ass. last night was particularly hard and disappointing. I text messaged Mike during the 3 minute run because it was so so so hard and I was going to have to stop. I was so so upset, and hit "cool down" to slow the treadmill down, when I realized I was running up hill WTF? I was running on a 3.5 incline. walking fast/running for 15 minutes before I realized it! I felt better about failing, and continued the run and now my butt hurts this morning.

Tonight is cardio water aerobics. I'm very nervous for it! haha...

Well I'm feeling like a complete and utter failure. I'm just failing left and right. I didn't go to the gym yesterday because Oliver didn't feel well, and I'm wondering if we will go tonight because I'm meeting up with a friend later in the afternoon. I think if we go to McDonald's to let the boys play it will be alright, we can swing over to the gym on the way home. I will pack a bag just in case.

I've been doing a food diary at sparkpeople.com and it's helpful, but I know I have been over my calories each day.

I weighed myself this morning at 182. that's up 3 lbs from last week? I don't know, I'm so frustrated about it. I'm at a loss how to convince myself not to snack all day long, and even if it's 100 calories here and there it adds up.

I remember that the first 2 weeks of a food change is always the hardest, but for the life of me I can't even stick to something for a few days. I had some immediate results last week and that was a great reinforcement, but right now it seems that it's working in reverse and I'm feeling awfully frustrated. Yesterday I felt slightly discouraged but today I feel downright pessimistic.

How do you kick start a life style change? I feel like I have the motivation (pregnancy asap) but I'm lacking the positive results.

I know that if I crash diet this won't work, I need to make sure tht I'm dedicated and in it for the long haul.

so, do I suck it up and pay for Weight Watchers? do I just eat frozen meals and salads? do I follow some crazy fad for two weeks to kick start this thing? I just don't know. I'm flailing.

I'm going to use this blog as a fitness blog. sorry if anyone in the blogosphere liked my very occasional posts about my kids!

anyways, I thought I'd like to record all my efforts to lose weight as a way to keep myself accountable but mostly as a way to be able to see how fantastic I'm doing and what I need to change. When I lost 40lbs before kids I never really wrote down what I ate, and I dont' remember, and I really wish I did because I never remember feeling hungry!

This weekend was awful with the Super Bowl, but I am 182lbs this morning and pretty unhappy about it. I've been going to the gym soooo much so hopefully something is happening.

I will officially weigh in tonight on the Wii and track my progress here and on Sparkpeople.